Dear GGM
I tried to make it work.
That three month mark is a doozey. Historically I don’t usually last more than three months in a relationship, so really it’s nothing personal.
Am I afraid of commitment? Yes, of course. Not because I don’t think you’re worth it, but because my life just doesn’t work that way. At first my family and friends were all very supportive and said you were probably the best thing that ever happened to me. Then as the weeks progressed I realized that all my other relationships and persuits were suffering at the hands of this one. If it’s you or everything else, I’m sorry. I chose everything else. I didn’t come up with these terms; you did.
Am I insecure? Yes, of course. But the compromises and challenges you presented are pretty unique and even you would have to admit that. The challenges started out healthy. I learned a lot about myself; what I am capable of and what my limitations are. I feel like that lesson has carried over into other aspects of my life and I thank you for helping me get to that point. But I’m there now. You now ask for too much. This give and take relationship is more like “I give and you take.” I might seem insecure because I shy away from that, but it’s only because I fear the confrontation. I don’t fear my inability to deliver on your unreasonable demands. I’m too old for that.
Now that I’ve got that off my chest, I really want us to remember the good times. So many late, hot, sweaty nights- always ending it with a cigarette (and I said I would quit smoking for you!). It would have been perfect if only I didn’t look up, out of breath and panting, at the TV only to see that oreilly motherfucker from FOX on it every goddamn time. What the fuck’s up with that anyways?
Don’t worry about me (not that you would ;-)). I’ve got plenty of things to keep me busy during the time I used to spend with you. And I’m sure there are plenty of other guys who would love to just get in there and… do everything I couldn’t.
I’ll never forget you Gold’s Gym, even after my membership expires.
-Sean
Wha?! No more of the Gun Show?
lisa
16 Sep 04 at 1:04 pm
Your tickets may still be redeemable for other Gun Shows at another box office.
It’s kind of a shame, what with the assault weapons ban being lifted and all.
banksean
16 Sep 04 at 1:23 pm
It took me a long time to build up the courage to write how I felt about you leaving, so please hear me out. You know I never wanted to pressure you… If I was putting to much weight on your shoulders you could have told me to drop it down a notch. I was always there for you. 24 hours a day all you had to do was come by and I would be there waiting. I even let your friends come by hang out. I never even complained when they put there sweaty hands on my “equipment” and you just watched and smirked. Your eyes saying “Whatever, I’m done anyway”.
I knew then it was over, so I’m not surprised, just angered that I didn’t get more out of it than you did. SO PAY ME!!!
Gigi
18 Sep 04 at 11:27 pm
can i get my password
pls.. sent in my yahoomail.com
john_harris04@yahoo.com
scrappy
15 Jun 09 at 1:38 am